Pregnant for a Day

For one day we knew what it was like to feel like we finally made it.

After 3 years we were able to embrace each other and celebrate.

I am bleeding as if AF is here. In my mind it's over.

I am not in any pain (physically). But in my heart, I know it's over.

Harry and I are blessed to know we had a baby for a day. We know IUI works for us and we can and will try again. I am so glad I POAS and new I was pregnant. If I hadn't taken the test I would have just thought AF arrived early. Now we know. It makes the loss harder and greater but it gives us hope and trust that one day we will get pregnant and take home a baby.

Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. All our shared pain unites us and you are all sisters to me. Thank you.

Waiting

It's been a rough night.

The ups and downs of infertility only intensify once you think you have a positive...

We're still so overwhelmed and can't possibly believe that we will make it through this with a real live baby.

I woke up in the middle of the night to pee and discovered I was bleeding.

It was red blood. Not a lot --only saw it when I wiped (sorry if this is TMI).

I spent the rest of the night on line goo.g.gling 'bleeding during pregnancy'.

Called my RE's call service at 6 AM. The RN returned my call in 10 minutes and said that all we can do is wait and as soon as we have the blood results she'll let me know.

Bleeding has seemed to tapper off.

Just got the blood results phone call. BETA is 14. Yesterday was 12 dpIUI. I don't know what this means. Of course I've goo.g.g.led Hcg levels and am still none the wiser.

RN says its a positive and to come in on Monday and not to be too concerned cause it is still very early.

So we're back to the waiting game.

This is torture.

Skerd

I have this argument with myself everytime...

to pee or not to pee.....

After countless negative HPTs I've always promised myself...

"NO HPTs until I miss a period"

And I always loose.

So today I broke down and PAOS.

Telling myself. "When you get the BFN at least you'll know and you can mourn the loss and move on."

So I did it.

And I saw a faint blue line.

I called my RE RN and they told me to come in now for blood work.

Took another POAS test at the RE's office. Here's that picture

You can see the faint pink test line.

RE says it's not the HCG shot- I am pregnant

RE RN says I am pregnant

Office mananger says I am pregnant

I can't believe it....

Blood work was rushed. RE RN should call with blood work results tonight.

Harry and I are skerd.