Monday, September 17, 2007

Move Along

We're moving on.

That's not to say this is any easier.

I think I've fooled myself with the severity and depth of our loss.

I keep having nightmares in which I am crying for my dead baby.

I am a ghost.

A shadow.

I am moving along. Living by the motions. This is my new theme song. I've used it before in this IF journey but today, right now, it's even more applicable.

Even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along
just to make it through.

When everything is wrong...


soralis said...

I am so sorry. I hope you find happiness in the future. Hugs

mary ellen said...

I am sorry sweetie. One day at a time. It is so hard sometimes.

Bea said...

A very appropriate song.

It's hard to tell, in advance, how we'll react to these things. You've been trying a long time, and you finally had a positive, and then a loss. Yes, it was early, but that doesn't mean it was all in your imagination - there *was* a little embryo there making that hCG.

Best not to try and hammer your grieving process into any mould. Whatever you feel, you'll feel. And keep moving along.


Thalia said...

Just awful, sweetie, I am so sorry.

JJ said...

Sending prayers and hugs your way...I have been keeping you in my thoughts.

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry. I wish there were something we could do to ease ease the pain of all of this. There are other people who think of you and who care and understand. I hope you kind find a little comfort in that.

gracechild said...

hang in there Jenny. As long as you can move forward, that's an assurance that you're not on-the-floor-dead. my thots are with you