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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Out the Window

Well one door has closed and we're climbing through a window.

Or so it seems...

Monday night was our first Lupron injection for our FET.

It hurt.

Not physically...but emotionally. The injection signified that IVF #1 really failed. Harry and I sat on the bed holding each other for a while...needle in hand ready...Starting over means leaving #2 and #4 and acknowledging that it really didn't work. It was a hard pill to swallow.

I met with my RE RN Monday. As much as I love my clinic I often wonder if they have any idea who we are. I know my RE RN recognizes me but I don't think she knows me or my medical history. Many times I had to correct her about dosages and occurrences for IVF #1.

Is is wrong to be worried that you know more than the trained professionals? We discussed the value/success of Prometrium suppositories vs. POI. We're going with POI this time. RE RN wanted to know if I could handle the larger needle. My response...

"The physical pain, I can handle...it's the emotional pain that's killing me."

I think the POI is a good idea considering I started my period on the Prometrium suppositories...

Looks like FET will be around June 1.

11 comments:

serenity said...

Oh, Jenny, I can SO identify with you... IVF #1 didn't work for us either - I was pregnant for a whole week before it went to sh*t.

We're debating a FET and I just can't wrap my brain around it because it means that I'll have to accept fully that the first round failed. SO hard.

I hope it gets easier and this will be the last cycle you'll ever have to deal with injections.

If it's ok with you, I'd like to post a link from my blog to yours?

Hang in there.

Heather P. said...

Good Luck with the FET. I am sorry I have been a bad blogger friend lately! Hope this cycle goes easy and with a great bfp on the end of it.

soralis said...

I am so sorry round one didn't work out. Hang in there and I hope good things are to come for you.

Take care

wannabmom214 said...

Jenny, I commend you and your husband for having the strength to go forward with the FET. My Hubby and I are praying for you.

Spanglish said...

I don't know the protocol for FET as I haven't done that yet... but I'm sad that it involves Lupron. For some reason I was under the impression that those drugs wouldn't come into play with the FET. I guess I'll learn through you as I am not ready yet to take that step.

You'll be in my heart each step of the way. Good luck.

UtRus said...

climbing through a window. i like that. and the cool thing is there are LOTS of windows in a house... right? ok, so good luck on the FET and with those prog shots. you're brave!

formerteacher said...

Oh, how I can relate to you about knowing more than the professionals do! It's really irritating too.
I used the PIO with my IVF. Yes, the needle was bigger and hurt, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. I would just think to myself that I'd do anything for a baby, so if I had to use PIO then that's what I'd do.

Maya said...

I am sorry that your RE RN wasn't on top of things with you. I hope that go well with your FET

Sarah said...

So sorry that the first one didn't work. We just started our first, but I'm already thinking about how I will deal with the failure should it happen. I wish you the best of luck for the FET!

Mary Ellen and Steve said...

Good luck with your FET. You are in my thoughts. Hugs!

Just another Jenny said...

You are so right, the physical is nothing compared to the mental. I guess I'll do the suppositories again, I still don't have my period.
I have to wait 3 periods for my FET. Suckbutt!
You know I'm pulling for you. If you get success I just might have a little hope for myself (not to put any pressure on you).